I wish I could let out a heart wrenching scream. Maybe I would feel better.
So I took my income tax exam, and I am fairly certain that I passed. And since then I've been sitting home, and studying for a much more relaxed take-home exam in Education Law (one of the few courses that I like). And while there is no similar aspect in Education Law as there was in Income Tax, where I need to actually understand completely abstract concepts and memorize horribly dry facts (I don't need to memorize anything and I have a firm grasp on all the concepts since I did most of the reading throughout the semester), there are nevertheless aspects that make studying MISERABLE!!!!! Such as:
- I am doing it at home, so I don't need to wear anything except home clothes, and I have no occasion to put on make-up or make myself look human (which i find is a very helpful thing to one's sense of normalcy)
- I am hurting all over! Explanation: I am studying on the couch instead of at a desk or a table because well.. I don't own a desk (Vadim is not sharing his, and his huge computer takes up the whole desk anyway). I could, of course, use the dining room table, but I feel that sitting on the couch makes the experience more "relaxing". But due to sitting on the couch for so many hours of the day, while surrounded by books and my laptop is leading to my back hurting. So every time I get up I feel like I am aching all over. Like a broken 90 year old lady. It's ironic, because I am aching in part due to the weight lifting class I took 2 days ago, which should reaffirm that I am not an old lady.
- I have no social life. I don't remember the last time I hung out with people! Ok, it was 2 weeks ago - but that is way too long of a time. I miss human contact and I need a drink. I know, I could drink here, but I am not one of those people that drinks alone. I only eat alone.
- I watch way too much horrible TV. But at the same time, it is making me realize just how many completely sick and wacky people there are out there. For instance (also from Oprah): there are people who have something called a "hoarding syndrome", where they aren't capable of throwing anything away and their house becomes a complete mess. This one woman lives surrounded by her dog's poop (it's all over the shower and the carpets and she doesn't clean it up) and piles of dirty dishes and crap that's been piling up for literally years.. Some other woman has 81 cats and 6 dogs!!!! So now I think how amazingly functional I actually am! I never leave dishes in the sink overnight. I don't see any poop lying around anywhere.
Recent Books
1) "Sophie's Choice" by William Styron. This book must be blamed for my miserable studying experience because I "wasted" days reading it and neglecting my studying because I could not put it down.
2) Just finished "The Actual" by Saul Bellow. It was the only book by Bellow available in my library, and as I could not quite master "Herzog", I figured I would try something a little simpler before attempting it again. I am not sure I completely get "The Actual", but it certainly had an incredibly sweet ending.
3) Recently started another Philip Roth book, "Zuckerman Unbound". As all Philip Roth books that I've read - I am loving it already. But I am only allowing myself a few minutes a day (in a secret location) so as not to disrupt my studying too much.
Well - goodbye everyone. Tomorrow morning I am starting a 48 hour take-home exam, which I only have 24 hours to complete because sunday I have a family function to attend. Wish me luck.
So I took my income tax exam, and I am fairly certain that I passed. And since then I've been sitting home, and studying for a much more relaxed take-home exam in Education Law (one of the few courses that I like). And while there is no similar aspect in Education Law as there was in Income Tax, where I need to actually understand completely abstract concepts and memorize horribly dry facts (I don't need to memorize anything and I have a firm grasp on all the concepts since I did most of the reading throughout the semester), there are nevertheless aspects that make studying MISERABLE!!!!! Such as:
- I am doing it at home, so I don't need to wear anything except home clothes, and I have no occasion to put on make-up or make myself look human (which i find is a very helpful thing to one's sense of normalcy)
- I am hurting all over! Explanation: I am studying on the couch instead of at a desk or a table because well.. I don't own a desk (Vadim is not sharing his, and his huge computer takes up the whole desk anyway). I could, of course, use the dining room table, but I feel that sitting on the couch makes the experience more "relaxing". But due to sitting on the couch for so many hours of the day, while surrounded by books and my laptop is leading to my back hurting. So every time I get up I feel like I am aching all over. Like a broken 90 year old lady. It's ironic, because I am aching in part due to the weight lifting class I took 2 days ago, which should reaffirm that I am not an old lady.
- I have no social life. I don't remember the last time I hung out with people! Ok, it was 2 weeks ago - but that is way too long of a time. I miss human contact and I need a drink. I know, I could drink here, but I am not one of those people that drinks alone. I only eat alone.
- I watch way too much horrible TV. But at the same time, it is making me realize just how many completely sick and wacky people there are out there. For instance (also from Oprah): there are people who have something called a "hoarding syndrome", where they aren't capable of throwing anything away and their house becomes a complete mess. This one woman lives surrounded by her dog's poop (it's all over the shower and the carpets and she doesn't clean it up) and piles of dirty dishes and crap that's been piling up for literally years.. Some other woman has 81 cats and 6 dogs!!!! So now I think how amazingly functional I actually am! I never leave dishes in the sink overnight. I don't see any poop lying around anywhere.
Recent Books
1) "Sophie's Choice" by William Styron. This book must be blamed for my miserable studying experience because I "wasted" days reading it and neglecting my studying because I could not put it down.
2) Just finished "The Actual" by Saul Bellow. It was the only book by Bellow available in my library, and as I could not quite master "Herzog", I figured I would try something a little simpler before attempting it again. I am not sure I completely get "The Actual", but it certainly had an incredibly sweet ending.
3) Recently started another Philip Roth book, "Zuckerman Unbound". As all Philip Roth books that I've read - I am loving it already. But I am only allowing myself a few minutes a day (in a secret location) so as not to disrupt my studying too much.
Well - goodbye everyone. Tomorrow morning I am starting a 48 hour take-home exam, which I only have 24 hours to complete because sunday I have a family function to attend. Wish me luck.
posted by SmallWonder at 8:03 PM
1 Comments:
good luck, alla! it'll all be over soon.
it's funny, i was driving home tonight and thinking about how i wanted to start a "recent books" section on my blog... then i came here and read about yours! great minds and all, you know.
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